The Last Year: Complicated (Emma)

“Lego House” –Ed Sheeran

We’d grown closer and closer over the few months between visiting Brighton and the date this e-mail was sent, and occasionally Emma had begun to drop small hints that her feelings might be developing into something more than friendship. I already knew that I loved her, as an amazing friend, and had told her as much, but were my feelings growing to? Had I fallen in-love? I had to e-mail her.

Needles to say, she did reply to that e-mail, but as it was incredibly personal, I don’t want to reproduce it here. We discussed the finer details the next day, and officially became a couple on Sunday the 27^th of November 2011.

I can’t really go into much detail on this one as it’s far too painful. I’ll write a more thorough post at some point in the not-so-distant future, but at this time, I’ll keep it brief.

We were together for 11 months (some of the best in my life; being head-over-heels in love), and then on Saturday the 3^rd of November2012, my life came crashing down around me when Emma ended our relationship. She wanted to remain friends, but after putting me through so much pain for reasons that I still don’t fully understand, I felt I couldn’t be that for her, and have terminated all contact. And I still miss her every day, over a month later. I’ll never be the person I was in that relationship ever again. And so you now understand why I felt I had to re-start the Monster In Me Blog; because my monster is back…..with a vengeance.